elenafaye's Journals on Buzznet http://elenafaye.buzznet.com/user/journal/ en-us <![CDATA[first day of school 2009.]]> http://elenafaye.buzznet.com/user/journal/4542691/ today was the first day of school for me... seems kinda late since it's already september 10th, but yeah we're weird like that. anyway, my schedule doesn't necessarily suck because of its order, but the classes in it i can see KILLING me so if you don't hear from me too often, maybe you could message lohla or something and she could do a little drive by, check my pulse or something.

first period: precalculus honors. now, why am i taking honors you say? BECAUSE I'M STUPID. i haven't taken honors these past two years and what do i get... first day we have to read something in the book that's 'review' for everyone else, but no, for me in the dumb class last year we knew none of this. booooo this class is gonna be the worst, definitely. ah, get it over with first period?

second: AP us history. whatever, did the first half of this course last year and the teacher seems willing to help us not all fail. gah.

third: art of writing. i'm one of like three juniors in the class, everyone else is seniors haha slacker class! teacher is cool, plus i like creative writing, and it's definitely something you can only improve in, you can't just get worse and worse like in math or something where things get harder and harder.

fourth: same teacher as third... weird? but it's english... honors. i can take it! hopefully these writing classes will give me something to post up on here every once in a while... :/

fifth: visual arts which this year is fundamentals of drawing/ceramics. i'm more excited for ceramics, cause i kinda suck at drawing but we'll see what happens.

sixth: psychology. another slacker class where i'm one of the only juniors. nice.

seventh: gym. uhhhh need i say more than WHO ENJOYS RUNNING THE MILE??

eighth: physics honors. done for the day! but this teacher is craaaazy hahah she seems nice enough and if you're on her good side, you get tons of extra credit opportunities, but at the same time she's kinda old but thinks she's like 20.

so this year i'm thinking i'll be posting lots of journals either all about creative writing/psychology or it'll just be lists of mathematical functions i don't understand and you'll just have to sit there and wonder what the eff i'm doing. :)

sorry for boring you with this basically pointless journal, but in case you're interested in my high school career? ...enjoy.

]]> Buzznet elenafaye 2009-09-10T13:40:00Z <![CDATA[another personality test hah]]> http://elenafaye.buzznet.com/user/journal/4478011/
Advanced Global Personality Test Results
Extraversion |||||||||||| 50%
Stability |||||| 26%
Orderliness |||||||||| 34%
Accommodation |||||||||||| 50%
Interdependence |||||||||||||||||| 76%
Intellectual |||||||||||||||||| 74%
Mystical |||||||||||||||||| 76%
Artistic |||||||||||||| 56%
Religious |||| 16%
Hedonism |||||||||||||| 56%
Materialism || 10%
Narcissism |||||||||| 36%
Adventurousness |||||||||||||||||| 76%
Work ethic |||| 16%
Humanitarian |||||||||||||||||||| 83%
Conflict seeking |||||| 30%
Need to dominate |||||| 30%
Romantic |||| 16%
Avoidant |||||||||||| 50%
Anti-authority |||||||||||||||| 70%
Wealth |||||||||||| 43%
Dependency |||||||||||||| 56%
Change averse |||||| 23%
Cautiousness |||||||||||| 50%
Individuality |||||||||||||||| 63%
Sexuality |||||||||||||||| 63%
Peter pan complex |||||||||||||| 56%
Family drive |||||||||||||||| 70%
Physical Fitness || %
Histrionic |||||| 30%
Paranoia |||||||||||| 43%
Vanity |||||||||||||||||| 76%
Honor |||||||||||| 43%
Thriftiness |||||||||||||||||||| 83%
Take Free Advanced Global Personality Test
personality test by similarminds.com

oops @ physical activity i should try to change that i'm just not motivated hahah

i love that i'm considered a total humanitarian hah i think that way but i don't act that way... romantic = almost nothing... sexuality = almost 2/3... -_- oooops

trait snapshot:
messy, irritable, depressed, fragile, worrying, emotionally sensitive, does not like to lead, phobic, weird, suspicious, low self control, paranoid, frequently second guesses self, dependent, unproductive, introverted, weak, strange, unassertive, submissive, familiar with the dark side of life, feels invisible, rash, vain, anti-authority, heart over mind, low self concept, disorganized, not good at saving money, avoidant, daydreamer, unadventurous


although some of those things contradict the things they say with percentages so idk.
but i still liked this quiz.
sank yoh loh
]]> elena elenafaye faye lohla ramona Buzznet elenafaye 2009-08-23T21:57:00Z <![CDATA[schizotypal? D:]]> http://elenafaye.buzznet.com/user/journal/4477781/
Personality Disorder Test Results
Paranoid |||||||||||| 50%
Schizoid |||||||||||||||||| 74%
Schizotypal |||||||||||||||||||| 90%
Antisocial |||||||||||| 42%
Borderline |||||||||||| 46%
Histrionic |||||||||||||| 54%
Narcissistic |||||||||| 34%
Avoidant |||||||||||| 46%
Dependent |||||||||||| 46%
Obsessive-Compulsive |||||||||||| 42%
Take Free Personality Disorder Test
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hahahaha damn guys so basically i'm above average by a LOT in 'schizotypal' but you should take the quiz it's super easy and like as lohla has said, it's totally how you're answering the questions, so it's how you think you are, you know? but this one is a bit... idfk but i didn't know a lot about these disorders so it's easier to be honest for the questions.

Disorder Info

Eccentric Personality Disorders: Paranoid, Schizoid, Schizotypal

Individuals with these disorders often appear odd or peculiar.

Paranoid Personality Disorder - individual generally tends to interpret the actions of others as threatening.

Schizoid Personality Disorder - individual generally detached from social relationships, and shows a narrow range of emotional expression in various social settings.

Schizotypal Personality Disorder - individual is uncomfortable in close relationships, has thought or perceptual distortions, and peculiarities of behavior.

Dramatic Personality Disorders: Antisocial, Borderline, Histrionic, and Narcissistic

Individuals with these disorders have intense, unstable emotions, distorted self-perception, and/or behavioral impulsiveness.

Antisocial Personality Disorder - individual shows a pervasive disregard for, and violation of, the rights of others.

Borderline Personality Disorder - individual shows a generalized pattern of instability in interpersonal relationships, self-image, and observable emotions, and significant impulsiveness.

Histrionic Personality Disorder - individual often displays excessive emotionality and attention seeking in various contexts. They tend to overreact to other people, and are often perceived as shallow and self-centered.

Narcissistic Personality Disorder - individual has a grandiose view of themselves, a need for admiration, and a lack of empathy that begins by early adulthood and is present in various situations. These individuals are very demanding in their relationships.

Anxious Personality Disorders: Avoidant, Dependent, Obsessive-Compulsive

Individuals with these disorders often appear anxious or fearful.

Avoidant Personality Disorder - individual is socially inhibited, feels inadequate, and is oversensitive to criticism

Dependent Personality Disorder - individual shows an extreme need to be taken care of that leads to fears of separation, and passive and clinging behavior.

Obsessive-Compulsive Personality Disorder - individual is preoccupied with orderliness, perfectionism, and control at the expense of flexibility, openness, and efficiency.
]]> elena elenafaye faye lohla ramona Buzznet elenafaye 2009-08-23T20:53:00Z <![CDATA[@elenafaye needs a new username.]]> http://elenafaye.buzznet.com/user/journal/4466001/ let's just face it... elena faye was a stupid idea. i don't know if you all did or didn't realize, but it's totally not my real name. i made it up in like the 8th grade when i was 13, and thought it was so cool cause i didn't like my own name. wtf?

anyway, i want a new username, and i think that's possible if i message mark or someone, so i'm wondering if anyone has any suggestions... does anyone actually read this??

what i've been thinking of, since 'wearegolden' is already taken on twitter [and i want twitter and buzznet names to be the same/include my own name maybe...]

lohla likes 'WeAreNedlog' yea or nay? ... if you didn't notice that's we are golden but golden is backwards.

why am i even posting this?

it's basically me thinking into this journal.

whatever, if you can think of anything, i'm really bad at this.

so.

thank you, my devoted readers.

how many of you are there? 4?

xoxo

abigail

]]> elena elenafaye faye Buzznet elenafaye 2009-08-20T13:36:00Z <![CDATA[sooo i suppose i could tell you about my week.]]> http://elenafaye.buzznet.com/user/journal/4323771/ i guess you could call it my vacation, since it was really fun, and i met awesome people, and i'm not going anywhere for longer away from home this summer. you could also call it a missions trip, but it's not very religious, even though it's organized through churches. yeah, you pray at meals but it has nothing to do with that... it has to do with helping people in a less fortunate part of upstate new york than where i live in new jersey, and groups of teenagers go in and fix roofs, build wheelchair ramps, fix plumbing [kinda happy i didn't get that job...], paint houses, etc.

it was a church in my town, and two groups from two separate churches about half an hour from where i live, and one of them was all prissy and obnoxious and hardly finished their project, and didn't take it seriously. but my church worked hard and finished with no complaints from the staff, and the third town was awesome and social an are my new best friends.

basically it started off as this: my group was a very attractive senior boy, his dad, a 15 year old boy in my grade who i've never ever gotten along with, two girls from my church i only kind of know, myself, and my mom. i thought it was gonna be kinda quiet and awkward like it was last year with a different group, but it was actually really talkative and there were rough patches [mainly name calling and dumb shit like that, it happens.] but we really did well and worked together... and then at the end of the day we went back to the high school where we were staying. one night we went to a farm and played volleyball and had a bonfire and a barbeque and hayrides and wow... i guess that's where we all started mingling because by saturday when we drove home [four and a half hours... urgh!] we had all exchanged numbers and were texting in the car... mainly passing around pictures of each other sleeping hahahah. luckily i never fell asleep!

idk why i even typed all this out hahah. i guess just cause it's where i've been all week? i'll try to get some pictures, but beware i'm no where near cute because i was wearing work clothes with paint and dirt and sweat... yummy. at least everyone was in the same boat and it didn't stop the cute boys from flirting. XD

 

all i want to hear is the truth, but it's too hard for me to say it myself, so can i ever really expect to hear more than lies?

 

xoxo,

whatever you want to call me.

]]> elena elenafaye faye Buzznet elenafaye 2009-07-13T13:39:00Z <![CDATA[insight]]> http://elenafaye.buzznet.com/user/journal/4270151/ of course i completely credit this all to william beckett ... eastbound traffic - remember maine

but god is this a good song. sometimes plain and simple, voice and acoustic, is right up my alley. i used to hate it now i love it all the time.

 

could we make up our minds tonight
will we open up our eyes
burning pages i'm pouring out on
will you innocence contest
will you be like the rest

wake up the time has come
to make up for what you have done
maybe my answers are not out east
well atleast i still breathe

longing for lovers that have long since discovered
the truth behind these dreams
eastbound traffic has lead me to rush hour scenes

i'm not coming home
its time i'm letting go of all of my pain
i leave it to you
too much to contain
now theres nothing to lose

i'm not coming home
its time i'm letting go of all of my pain
i leave it to you
too much to contain
now theres nothing to lose

maybe my answers are not out east
well atleast i still breathe
maybe my answers are not out east
well atleast i still breathe

longing for lovers that have long since discovered
the truth behind these dreams
eastbound traffic has lead me to rush hour scenes
rush hour scenes

contemplating our love is fading
i'm not holding back tears anymore
contemplating our love is fading
i'm not holding back these tears anymore

i'm not coming home
its time i'm letting go of all of my pain
i leave it to you
too much to contain
now theres nothing to lose

i'm not coming home
its time i'm letting go of all of my pain
i leave it to you
too much to contain
now theres nothing to lose

]]> elena elenafaye faye Buzznet elenafaye 2009-06-29T16:08:00Z <![CDATA[oh buzznet, i need you.]]> http://elenafaye.buzznet.com/user/journal/4200611/ to vent right now! shit, what the eff. like, i'm not in any drama or anything but sometimes things just piss me off. like, if you don't like something i did, just tell me, don't go behind my back trying to fix it yourself because it's just gonna make me feel stupid and self-conscious. ugh. maybe i'm just too sensitive. i'm gonna spend my rainy saturday [and rainy life, which looks like this summer shall be...] reading! yes. i read. big whoop. so i actually use the brain i was given. it's a positive!

how is everyone? excuse the ventage.

xoxo.

]]> elena elenafaye faye Buzznet elenafaye 2009-06-13T09:27:00Z <![CDATA[HOT and NOT! -idea from audrey kitching-]]> http://elenafaye.buzznet.com/user/journal/4135651/ kinda in response to audrey's new journal, my hot and nots of this summer!

HOT:

high-waisted short shorts. we've seen katy perry rock them, last summer they were getting popular... i think not everyone can pull it off but if you can you should! they're adorable, especially with tights if you have a strict school haha!

HOT: overall shorts/rompers! i don't own any, at least yet, but i want to!

HOT: studded gladiator sandals.. yeah they've been popular for a while but i love them and i finally have a pair! definitely still in for this summer, and studs make everything better :] but you either have to go up to the knee or right at the ankle, none of this mid-calf business.

HOT: nautical sweaters/accessories! i love anchors, ropes, big stripes, red and blue that's not too blatantly patriotic...

NOT: the guido look, down the shore babez! like, i love the shore and all, but fist pumping, frolicking, orange skinned fun is no fun for me.

NOT: thick hippie headbands... i'm not too opposed to the thin ones on some people, but thick ones and sweatbands are a no in my book!

NOT: orange airbrush tans. oompa loompas were created to be funny, not to be sexy! keep your natural colored skin... or at least be SAFE about tanning if you do like it.

NOT: tiny ozzy sunglasses... big is still hot, and the tiny ones, no matter what shape, will just have you looking like ozzy or john lennon!

what about you guys... agree or disagree?? now i wanna do some more of these eventually haha with makeup, events/activites... everything! hahaha it's fun.

 

appreciation and acceptance and whatever the opposite of ignorance is,

elena

]]> elena elenafaye faye Buzznet elenafaye 2009-05-27T17:14:00Z <![CDATA[hi!]]> http://elenafaye.buzznet.com/user/journal/4118861/ anyone got anything good for me to read? i wanna see some original talents XD i'm so random but i feel like reading someone's poetry or short story or something. anyone?

hahaha besides that, it's a three-day weekend :] i took off school on thursday because i had two papers due that i hadn't finished, and considering i wouldn't normally skip school because of slacking off, my mom let me slack off for a day. my birthday's coming up! so we went to the mall and finished buying my presents haha cause she's too afraid i won't like what i get if i don't pick it out... so now i have to forget the adorable things i'm getting for a week... shit is it that soon... may 31! you're all invited! to my nonexistent party! w0000t. sweet sixteen?

hrm i don't have much else to write about, but this summer tribal prints! ack i want some so bad, i have a last-season scarf from madewell that pretty well captures the tribal print theme hahah but i want a dress or shorts with it... maybe i should learn to sew so i don't need to pay as much to get the dresses and stuff i want :/ too bad i'm not very handy with a sewing machine at all.

 

with love and tribe-men,

elena faye!

 

ps tribe man is something my friend chloe and i came up with in french class... he's this adorable little guy i'll post a picture haha but we did some henna and put him on us and then i got sunburn, then the henna wore off, so i have a fading tribe man burnt to my skin XD sadly, i also have 'i heart jesus' on my back, little did i know that's what she was writing... hahaha! oh well...

 

xoxo for real!

that kinda captures the tribe print right there... even though it's not perfectly what i'm imagining... idk idk google couldn't help me! XD

ALSO. TRIBE MAN. i just drew him for you :]

hahah random stapler/ipod wires.

]]> elena elenafaye faye Buzznet elenafaye 2009-05-23T05:57:00Z <![CDATA[fear of flying]]> http://elenafaye.buzznet.com/user/journal/4098081/ let's see, i haven't done a bamboozle recap yet, but since it was like two weeks ago now, it's gonna be boring! you've heard it all, saw some bands, blah blah blah. it was fun.

i've been obsessed with this a rocket to the moon song... 'fear of flying' i love it. it's not an extreme display of genius or anything... but the lyrics are so raw and true. and i can completely relate right now. i'm not having the best of times! bahaha but i'm getting over it because when you lose one friend, it usually helps you meet like 5 more. so last night a group of like twelve people went over to chloe's house to play manhunt, we started playing, then it started raining and we got bored... so we went inside and half the people left. then i slept over... vented to chloe... we stood out in the rain for a minute... it felt good :]

i have a research paper to finish today... which has to be at least four more pages. and right now it's three pages. grawr my life. i have to go to my little sister's dance recital later too... so i better get working on that paper! after i get offline. which will be soon after this journal that gets progressively more boring as it goes on.

my anxiety has like gone way up, but it reminds me to keep things in check. it makes me think a lot, and about my life and deep stuff. like, i need to calm down. i don't know why people are randomly trying to get me out of their lives, because i haven't changed. i guess that's not good enough for them, they want a different me, but that's not happening. i'm staying like this, the way i like myself, the only way i can probably keep myself sane.

hmm.

xoxox,

elena.

]]> elena elenafaye faye Buzznet elenafaye 2009-05-17T09:06:00Z