elenafaye

today was the first day of school for me... seems kinda late since it's already september 10th, but yeah we're weird like that. anyway, my schedule doesn't necessarily suck because of its order, but the classes in it i can see KILLING me so if you don't hear from me too often, maybe you could message lohla or something and she could do a little drive by, check my pulse or something.

first period: precalculus honors. now, why am i taking honors you say? BECAUSE I'M STUPID. i haven't taken honors these past two years and what do i get... first day we have to read something in the book that's 'review' for everyone else, but no, for me in the dumb class last year we knew none of this. booooo this class is gonna be the worst, definitely. ah, get it over with first period?

second: AP us history. whatever, did the first half of this course last year and the teacher seems willing to help us not all fail. gah.

third: art of writing. i'm one of like three juniors in the class, everyone else is seniors haha slacker class! teacher is cool, plus i like creative writing, and it's definitely something you can only improve in, you can't just get worse and worse like in math or something where things get harder and harder.

fourth: same teacher as third... weird? but it's english... honors. i can take it! hopefully these writing classes will give me something to post up on here every once in a while... :/

fifth: visual arts which this year is fundamentals of drawing/ceramics. i'm more excited for ceramics, cause i kinda suck at drawing but we'll see what happens.

sixth: psychology. another slacker class where i'm one of the only juniors. nice.

seventh: gym. uhhhh need i say more than WHO ENJOYS RUNNING THE MILE??

eighth: physics honors. done for the day! but this teacher is craaaazy hahah she seems nice enough and if you're on her good side, you get tons of extra credit opportunities, but at the same time she's kinda old but thinks she's like 20.

so this year i'm thinking i'll be posting lots of journals either all about creative writing/psychology or it'll just be lists of mathematical functions i don't understand and you'll just have to sit there and wonder what the eff i'm doing. :)

sorry for boring you with this basically pointless journal, but in case you're interested in my high school career? ...enjoy.

let's just face it... elena faye was a stupid idea. i don't know if you all did or didn't realize, but it's totally not my real name. i made it up in like the 8th grade when i was 13, and thought it was so cool cause i didn't like my own name. wtf?

anyway, i want a new username, and i think that's possible if i message mark or someone, so i'm wondering if anyone has any suggestions... does anyone actually read this??

what i've been thinking of, since 'wearegolden' is already taken on twitter [and i want twitter and buzznet names to be the same/include my own name maybe...]

lohla likes 'WeAreNedlog' yea or nay? ... if you didn't notice that's we are golden but golden is backwards.

why am i even posting this?

it's basically me thinking into this journal.

whatever, if you can think of anything, i'm really bad at this.

so.

thank you, my devoted readers.

how many of you are there? 4?

xoxo

abigail

i guess you could call it my vacation, since it was really fun, and i met awesome people, and i'm not going anywhere for longer away from home this summer. you could also call it a missions trip, but it's not very religious, even though it's organized through churches. yeah, you pray at meals but it has nothing to do with that... it has to do with helping people in a less fortunate part of upstate new york than where i live in new jersey, and groups of teenagers go in and fix roofs, build wheelchair ramps, fix plumbing [kinda happy i didn't get that job...], paint houses, etc.

it was a church in my town, and two groups from two separate churches about half an hour from where i live, and one of them was all prissy and obnoxious and hardly finished their project, and didn't take it seriously. but my church worked hard and finished with no complaints from the staff, and the third town was awesome and social an are my new best friends.

basically it started off as this: my group was a very attractive senior boy, his dad, a 15 year old boy in my grade who i've never ever gotten along with, two girls from my church i only kind of know, myself, and my mom. i thought it was gonna be kinda quiet and awkward like it was last year with a different group, but it was actually really talkative and there were rough patches [mainly name calling and dumb shit like that, it happens.] but we really did well and worked together... and then at the end of the day we went back to the high school where we were staying. one night we went to a farm and played volleyball and had a bonfire and a barbeque and hayrides and wow... i guess that's where we all started mingling because by saturday when we drove home [four and a half hours... urgh!] we had all exchanged numbers and were texting in the car... mainly passing around pictures of each other sleeping hahahah. luckily i never fell asleep!

idk why i even typed all this out hahah. i guess just cause it's where i've been all week? i'll try to get some pictures, but beware i'm no where near cute because i was wearing work clothes with paint and dirt and sweat... yummy. at least everyone was in the same boat and it didn't stop the cute boys from flirting. XD

 

all i want to hear is the truth, but it's too hard for me to say it myself, so can i ever really expect to hear more than lies?

 

xoxo,

whatever you want to call me.

of course i completely credit this all to william beckett ... eastbound traffic - remember maine

but god is this a good song. sometimes plain and simple, voice and acoustic, is right up my alley. i used to hate it now i love it all the time.

 

could we make up our minds tonight
will we open up our eyes
burning pages i'm pouring out on
will you innocence contest
will you be like the rest

wake up the time has come
to make up for what you have done
maybe my answers are not out east
well atleast i still breathe

longing for lovers that have long since discovered
the truth behind these dreams
eastbound traffic has lead me to rush hour scenes

i'm not coming home
its time i'm letting go of all of my pain
i leave it to you
too much to contain
now theres nothing to lose

i'm not coming home
its time i'm letting go of all of my pain
i leave it to you
too much to contain
now theres nothing to lose

maybe my answers are not out east
well atleast i still breathe
maybe my answers are not out east
well atleast i still breathe

longing for lovers that have long since discovered
the truth behind these dreams
eastbound traffic has lead me to rush hour scenes
rush hour scenes

contemplating our love is fading
i'm not holding back tears anymore
contemplating our love is fading
i'm not holding back these tears anymore

i'm not coming home
its time i'm letting go of all of my pain
i leave it to you
too much to contain
now theres nothing to lose

i'm not coming home
its time i'm letting go of all of my pain
i leave it to you
too much to contain
now theres nothing to lose

to vent right now! shit, what the eff. like, i'm not in any drama or anything but sometimes things just piss me off. like, if you don't like something i did, just tell me, don't go behind my back trying to fix it yourself because it's just gonna make me feel stupid and self-conscious. ugh. maybe i'm just too sensitive. i'm gonna spend my rainy saturday [and rainy life, which looks like this summer shall be...] reading! yes. i read. big whoop. so i actually use the brain i was given. it's a positive!

how is everyone? excuse the ventage.

xoxo.

kinda in response to audrey's new journal, my hot and nots of this summer!

HOT:

high-waisted short shorts. we've seen katy perry rock them, last summer they were getting popular... i think not everyone can pull it off but if you can you should! they're adorable, especially with tights if you have a strict school haha!

HOT: overall shorts/rompers! i don't own any, at least yet, but i want to!

HOT: studded gladiator sandals.. yeah they've been popular for a while but i love them and i finally have a pair! definitely still in for this summer, and studs make everything better :] but you either have to go up to the knee or right at the ankle, none of this mid-calf business.

HOT: nautical sweaters/accessories! i love anchors, ropes, big stripes, red and blue that's not too blatantly patriotic...

NOT: the guido look, down the shore babez! like, i love the shore and all, but fist pumping, frolicking, orange skinned fun is no fun for me.

NOT: thick hippie headbands... i'm not too opposed to the thin ones on some people, but thick ones and sweatbands are a no in my book!

NOT: orange airbrush tans. oompa loompas were created to be funny, not to be sexy! keep your natural colored skin... or at least be SAFE about tanning if you do like it.

NOT: tiny ozzy sunglasses... big is still hot, and the tiny ones, no matter what shape, will just have you looking like ozzy or john lennon!

what about you guys... agree or disagree?? now i wanna do some more of these eventually haha with makeup, events/activites... everything! hahaha it's fun.

 

appreciation and acceptance and whatever the opposite of ignorance is,

elena

anyone got anything good for me to read? i wanna see some original talents XD i'm so random but i feel like reading someone's poetry or short story or something. anyone?

hahaha besides that, it's a three-day weekend :] i took off school on thursday because i had two papers due that i hadn't finished, and considering i wouldn't normally skip school because of slacking off, my mom let me slack off for a day. my birthday's coming up! so we went to the mall and finished buying my presents haha cause she's too afraid i won't like what i get if i don't pick it out... so now i have to forget the adorable things i'm getting for a week... shit is it that soon... may 31! you're all invited! to my nonexistent party! w0000t. sweet sixteen?

hrm i don't have much else to write about, but this summer tribal prints! ack i want some so bad, i have a last-season scarf from madewell that pretty well captures the tribal print theme hahah but i want a dress or shorts with it... maybe i should learn to sew so i don't need to pay as much to get the dresses and stuff i want :/ too bad i'm not very handy with a sewing machine at all.

 

with love and tribe-men,

elena faye!

 

ps tribe man is something my friend chloe and i came up with in french class... he's this adorable little guy i'll post a picture haha but we did some henna and put him on us and then i got sunburn, then the henna wore off, so i have a fading tribe man burnt to my skin XD sadly, i also have 'i heart jesus' on my back, little did i know that's what she was writing... hahaha! oh well...

 

xoxo for real!

that kinda captures the tribe print right there... even though it's not perfectly what i'm imagining... idk idk google couldn't help me! XD

ALSO. TRIBE MAN. i just drew him for you :]

hahah random stapler/ipod wires.

let's see, i haven't done a bamboozle recap yet, but since it was like two weeks ago now, it's gonna be boring! you've heard it all, saw some bands, blah blah blah. it was fun.

i've been obsessed with this a rocket to the moon song... 'fear of flying' i love it. it's not an extreme display of genius or anything... but the lyrics are so raw and true. and i can completely relate right now. i'm not having the best of times! bahaha but i'm getting over it because when you lose one friend, it usually helps you meet like 5 more. so last night a group of like twelve people went over to chloe's house to play manhunt, we started playing, then it started raining and we got bored... so we went inside and half the people left. then i slept over... vented to chloe... we stood out in the rain for a minute... it felt good :]

i have a research paper to finish today... which has to be at least four more pages. and right now it's three pages. grawr my life. i have to go to my little sister's dance recital later too... so i better get working on that paper! after i get offline. which will be soon after this journal that gets progressively more boring as it goes on.

my anxiety has like gone way up, but it reminds me to keep things in check. it makes me think a lot, and about my life and deep stuff. like, i need to calm down. i don't know why people are randomly trying to get me out of their lives, because i haven't changed. i guess that's not good enough for them, they want a different me, but that's not happening. i'm staying like this, the way i like myself, the only way i can probably keep myself sane.

hmm.

xoxox,

elena.

i was just looking around on livejournal and happened across this ridiculously amazing and inspirational shoot of anja rubik... [warning, there is slight nudity.]

http://community.livejournal.com/modelcouture/1083027.html#cutid1

it's seriously so gorgeous. she's excellent in this... i like how she's doing some pretty crazy poses, but they're not pose-y, it's like she was just moving around and the photo just happened to be snapped at that second. that's what makes a great model, imho.

also, those crocheted underpants are win x932847238461.

xoxo,

elena.

heeeeey kids i'm just preparing you... one of elena's not-so-notorious photoblogs is headed your way ;D i think i've done one before... like after warped or something last summer. wooo. these are the pictures that i like, that explain things that i've been up to, but that aren't good enough to post as photos themselves, individually. soooo basically i've been on spring break the past week and i went to upstate new york thursday and friday... [got some adorable thrifty things in woodstock... i'll have pictures soon of me looking ridic in them XD] but for now... we went on this hike, just my mom and me lawl. errr we've been on it before, so we got lazy like 3/4 of the way up, and we turned around. ehh, we'd seen the view before, and it's not like there were any leaves on the trees yet to see anyway! whatevs. we'll go over the summer and drive up the road to find new trails and adventures :D

by a stream...

no worries! this is just my little friend nathaniel, the naked baby possum. KIDDING. it's a weird mushroom that freaked both me and my mother out.

thennnnn we did some yoga. don't make fun of my tummy-fat. ;D

basically, i read stupid YA books all week that my little sister checked out of the library. hey, lohla! i wanted a rest to my brain, [and secretly i'm a sucker for those kinds of books].

whaddaya think??

 

xoxo,

elenananda yogifaye.

 

PS i fail at photoblogs and idk why but the pictures aren't showing up. help?? in the meantime, you can copy/paste the links lawl. they work. so idk why my html fails. okayyy so thank you starlorsummers for helping me with the pictures. they are huge. buttttt they are there. so yay ;D

and wow, i see journals have finally gotten fancy for us mac users ;D

hrmm this weekend was a total bust! i made an ass of myselfff with lohla but it's okay because we recovered. lawl. uhm i went roller blading? bahah and these hot guys from my school were at mcdonalds when i was there with katie keeping shelter from the storm and drinking coke. and they were like wtf and we were like wtf and all of us were laughing and it was embarrassing cause katie and i were each carrying a single roller blade.

SATURDAY NIGHT AFTER ASS-MAKING-NESS lohla and i went to the mall and got all this cute stuff from XXI [yeah i'm 733t] and we were waiting in like for like a good 15-20 minutes when we had to ditch our stuff right there and jet outta the mall cause our ride was there and we didn't wanna make him wait. plus it would have been like 15 more minutes. soooo XXI i suggest you get more cashiers because there were like a gazillion people shopping and it was a saturday night and there were like two people working and i want that goddamn dress. whew okay -end rant-

SUNDAY lohla had to sleep over the night before and she got stuck coming to church XD i had to go cause there was this fund-raising bake sale for this trip i'm going on in the summer called RISE... and yeah so basically i found out that this kid i hate who's a dick is going. grr.

what the fuck. i'm more christian than he is. and i'm not even christian at all.

aaaaanyway. so i have spring break next week :D :D :D ;D yaaaay starting friday. wooo idk if i'm even doing anything fun, but i'm pretty sure whatever i do, it'll be better than sitting in school, slacking off, getting A's and overall not accomplishing anything.

i may or may not add more later, but my family is calling me to eat dinner.

 

xoxo

elena

w00t i'm here. i've been on a hiatus from the internet,only checking if i got new notifications, not posting anything D: i guess my life. is just. whatever lawl.
okay anyway, i'm posting some things that have inspired my lately.. what do you think?
this shoot had a camel. gotta love a good camel.

gotta love the plaid. and the stam.

and that's just fucking brilliant.

maybe some deep thoughts of my mind coming later!!

xoxo, gossip girl.

this is just an excerpt of something i scribbled down the other day. not the whole thing, this is the bearable part.

the reason is her mind. it's cluttered with frustration in failed talent, knowing rote vocations could be succuessful, but horridly boring. she has no special skills but wishes she knew music, wasn't smart as to be pressured into good grades in school in order to focus less on schoolwork and more on the excess. the purpose of life. there's no real reason besides the one society made up for living, so why shouldn't she have been born in the time period in which to choose this path for the rest of humanity? i'm choosing the woods. venturing to the cities for vacations to laugh at the petty concerns of money and clothes. --my life as it takes its course now-- this world i haven't truly entered at fifteen already makes me fill with anxiety. couldn't my life hve been placed on that other planet where living is solely meant to be lived? there's no assurance of pleasure after death, so live to fulfillment now. my fate could be to unlock the key to unrestricted minds, sending colonies back to the wild we've erupted from, spewing our ashes of molten order to and fro, missing only tiny scraps of wonder.

what i meant by that was, i don't want to be infringing on postsecret's copyright agreements, if they even have any, but go to postsecret.com. i actually go there semi-often to find out if random people whose names aren't even available on the site have some of the same problems i do. and here are a few things i found that i liked/may or may not relate to/laughed at.

<img src="http://i40.tinypic.com/11t1ult.jpg">
that one ^ is true about my life. but probably not as true as for whomever wrote the actual postcard.

<img src="http://i41.tinypic.com/awvqt2.jpg">
that one... just lawl at whoever fucking sent that in.

<img src="http://i40.tinypic.com/rwnx3k.jpg">
as cliche as this might be, i want to say that, or something along those lines. maybe not I LOVE YOU but maybe like I LIKE YOU GODDAMMIT CAN'T YOU TELL.

"hi my name is elena faye and i have never queefed."

i just saw coraline with lohla last night.... amazing in 3D. the plot is like... really intense for little kids like me hahah. you actually had to pay attention. coraline's hair... hmm remind you of anyone? XD but i don't believe i have a doll that looks like me. with buttons.
-shudders-
hhhhhhanyway. i've been in denial lately. i'm listening to a lot more blue öyster cult than usual, if that explains what i'm in denial about to anyone.
even though i'm pretty sure it's not true.
whatever, i'm not saying it in this journal XD you can note me or message or something if you wanna know bahah

loh and i are seeing a psychic. either today or monday maybe. i just decided, loh, that monday can work lawl. if today's not good. but idk yet but omg i'm a little nervous but i want to know at the same time. you see, i'm psychic. buuuuut. i can't see my own future. it's kinda sucky.
and i can't see anything worthwhile.
-i bet lohla is laughing her butt-with-a-finger-in-it off right now-

I NEED TO TAKE PICTURES HOLY SHIT I'VE BEEN DISCONNECTED FOREVZ. LOHLA WHEN WE CHILL OR GET OUR PALMS READ LETS TAKE PH0T0Z.

xoxox
elena 'still needs a middle name' faye.

so the optimum guy came the other day cause our internet had been running slow [buzznet being the slowest, hence my lack of pictures and journals, etc... too frustrating to wait for it to load like dial-up] and then our TVs went out lmao. he told us our modem for the internet wasn't on the same frequency as the airport, blah blah blah, we have to call the apple people and ask them to fix it and ugh it's just a bigger deal than it should be XD hopefully it gets fixed quick thoughhhh. i'm sick of not being online. it hurts my actual social life!

alright, kidding, but still. i've been out of the loop on a lot of things XD so... i need to take pictures anyway.
i don't really have any news to talk about hahaha. i'm writing a series of quotes and possibly anonymously sending them into my school's quote of the day thinger to make the people more aware, and then i'm sticking them in somewhat corresponding pages of my american lit text. [thanks duhduhdunke for the idea lmao. i credit you/whomever stuck the stickies in your book] and also chuck palahniuk cause of diary haahaha. ohh how i'm influenced so easily.

maybe i'll post a few of them up in here, eventually.
i'ma get to work on that, homework being last on my list of life things to get done. ;D remind me never to be a teacher, i'm not spending the second half of my life in school too. unless i've already said this and i have extremely early on-set alzheimer's and i just need to shut up.

it's all pretty useless anyway. not like i'm actually gonna be happy with a job that math or chemistry can teach me =/

sorry to push the cynicism to the limit today D:
xxoo-elena.

woooo here it is!
i have nothing to say, and then again i have everything to say. i can just fill up this journal with shit you don't wanna hear, or i can post no journals, ever. so i'm choosing the former.
today's a snow day, and we're supposed to be having midterms... wtf? but it's gross out, and i'm not going anywhere, and so yes. i am writing this. hmm i don't even have semi-interesting shit to talk about.
i could be getting dressed, putting in an effort to wake up completely today, but i'm not planning on doing that. maybe later. when i go to kickboxing, beat the shit out of an inanimate object, come home, put on new pajamas, and go back to sleep. i woke up at eleven am... hahaha i never do that, even on real weekends.
so tomorrow i first have an english exam, where i have to write a play, an interpretive essay and some multiple choice about whatever lit we've read this year. exciting.! two hours, then once i'm finished, you're not even allowed to bring in a book to read.
then i have a math exam!
should be completely easy, then i just sit there doodling on the test until the teacher calls time.
what's everyone else up to? i was gonna go shopping with loh and co., but it's gross out and neither of us could, so &co. went on their own hahahah now me and loh are like separately bored.
i've listened to the entirety of ice nine kills' last chance to make amends, and now i'm halfway through kill hannah's until there's nothing left of us.
i must have something for bands with 'kill' in their name, although that means nothing stereotypically about my personality.
i gotta buy my bamboozle tickets soon! i keep thinking about it, and never actually do it. and now i'm on the computer, but ehh. they don't sell out haha. i'm so ready for this year though.
summer can't get here fast enough... like, why can't this be finals week not midterms? then school would have like three days left, then two months of freedom.

alright alright, i've bored you all enough for one day. if anyone's even read this far down without falling asleep on their keyboard and their comment will read "666666666bvlksjeddddddf; blkgsj bbbbbbbbbb"
lol.
xoxoxo
elena ? faye.

okay guys. i need a middle name. brainstorm here!
lol. i've been thinking lately and trying to think of something good, but i'm coming up dry... i kind of like the letter t for the first letter though hahaha if that makes sense.
don't think i'm too much of a freak for asking this ;]